divine observer

It has been a very active week of energetic cleansings taking place in all forms and on every level of our beings.  So deep and so true are the essences of this that one can be left feeling exhausted and not quite sure what has happened.  Thus if you’re feeling drained or “fried” there is a good reason for it.

As time continues to accelerate, all issues within the self that hold on to the old ways and old limits of love, communication and interaction with the self are popping out to the surface faster and faster.  I don’t even think that there is a place where one could bury their head deep enough in the sand to not somehow be affected by our inner call for freedom. 

This means that if there is fear residing in you or a belief that you are less than you are, then your environment will show it to you over and over again in different ways and at a faster rate so that you can simply see it and purge it.   If it (they) are held on to past this point they begin to fester and cause undue pain and that never does anyone any good.  So it’s time to really let go. » Read more

Even though there are overall underlying similarities to each person’s journey toward self-awakening, the path is very much an individual one.   In other words, we as humanity are all present at this time in history on this planet and so we are all evolving.  How and to what extent each of us evolves however, is completely up to us and our own willingness to let go of the old, lower and limiting beliefs and allow the new and higher aspects of us to integrate and be utilized.

If we, for example, release a limiting belief about ourselves, there will be a space created within us that is energetically clear where that old belief used to exist.   It will be there and await our own, true input that comes as a result of the release of a past false belief and will fill it in a new way.  If, however, that space isn’t actively utilized in a new way by us it will simply refill itself once again and out of habit with the old ways.

Say you have a limiting and false belief telling you that you’re not worthy enough to receive your heart’s deepest desires.   (And I say your “heart’s” deepest desires because our mind’s desires are often far too limited and stuck in the ego.)   Maybe one of your heart’s deepest desires is for true inner peace. ..a peace that is unshakable and prevails through any storm, physical, emotional or environmental regardless of its intensity. » Read more

Eastern traditions and philosophies state pretty clearly that “You are not your mind”.  Western practices, having evolved through many flavors of world traditions, also make the noted point that we must strive to move beyond the mind. 

This is considered a difficult task even if you live in seclusion.  You probably don’t.  In fact, you probably live in this world, have a job, family and at times a merciless amount of mundane tasks to perform.  Yet despite your lack of isolation, you are still asking yourself to know that you are not your mind and to move beyond it.

What if the mind wants to fight this?  It will probably win if you were to get into a battle with it and attempt to force it to do your bidding.  I have fought my mind countless times on my path only to find myself tired and beaten from the experience. » Read more

Isn’t it funny how we want to blame someone or something if things don’t go the way we anticipated or hoped for?  When our expectations aren’t met, what’s the first thing we do?  We look for a culprit in our environment.  Why?  Because we have been taught to live in, and respond and react to this outside environment called our world.  We have learned to trust what the outside is telling us more than what is taking place on the inside.

The outside of us is one big giant mirror in the form of people, places and things that reflect back to us exactly what we believe whether conscious of those beliefs or not.  What we hold inside, we have been holding in order to bring those people, places and things to us to get us here to this place.  And now, this lifetime is the culmination of those experiences which we are seeing through our beliefs.  

For example, if someone you care for were to walk up to you and say something like, “You’re stupid” or basically, “You’re not worthy”, it would probably hurt your feelings or cause you to mount a strike back in the defense of your worth.  In this however, you will be believing in something outside of yourself and making yourself a victim to your environment.  You will not at all be seeing what you’re really showing yourself. » Read more

In this process of conscious enlightenment and energetic attunement, you will naturally and systematically be releasing all of the held patterns and beliefs that have kept you in any type of bondage or karmic cycles.  If you choose, this is the lifetime for that to take place. 

Sometimes, letting go of that “old” self and of what is no longer necessary can happen without a struggle or resistance.  For example, say that there is a gradual change that takes place in your diet in order to naturally lighten you up.  It happens because you simply begin desiring different foods, thereby naturally letting go of denser ones.  The denser energies naturally become replaced by lighter ones that will now better serve your rising consciousness and vibration of your body.

Often, however, there will be resistance to letting go.  We are after all, logical and skeptical beings.  The mind will come in and ask why we are letting go of things and people that we thought were important to our lives and identities. It will ask…sometimes yell, “WHAT ARE YOU DOING?”  The mind doesn’t know how to trust what it doesn’t understand.  It wonders, “Can I trust that if I let go of this important thing/person that the new will come in, be better and serve me more appropriately than the old?” » Read more

This cave, in a big way, represented my heart.  I realize that I had to sit inside my own heart not only in the darkness of the unknown, but also in the forgetfulness of my own history.  The history of the soul is forever recorded, I see, through the imprints of past experiences that remain as energetic recorded history lifetime after lifetime transferred through genetic lineages and karmic patterns.  And it is up to each of us individually to unplug ourselves enough from this illusional life to witness ourselves through the portal of the heart because there is no other place where our truth will be found.  There is only access through the heart.

The truth, then when unclouded and unfiltered, can both show us where the held bondages of our soul are and then set us free from them once they are clearly witnessed and released.   With the final release of these energetic holdings we are no longer bound, as a soul, to continually revisit the same experiences in a different manner through karma.  There is no need because the energy that drew the experience back over and over to us for learning is no longer there.

And then life gets interesting again.  Every single time something within gets cleared and new truth is uncovered, there surely will be a reflective change in something on the outside and in the immediate environment.  For me personally, a resignation from my long-held executive position in a company that I love was in order.  Talk about an unbelievably uncomfortable experience, mostly because I have felt so comfortable there and see the beauty and importance of what is accomplished with clean energy technologies.  » Read more

Over the past 3 days a large portion of the pretty little rug that made up my old world and (what I thought were) priorities, was swept clean out from under me.  Now as I sit here taking an in-breath and stock of all that has occurred, I can say with certainty, that it has been painful.  But also, and most importantly, I can also say that just past the shock of sudden change is an inconspicuous place…a room that is soft, gentle, clear and filled with the kindness of a loving kiss upon my cheek.

I’ll explain this later, but for now, let’s go back to the cave.  I returned there several times over a couple of day’s time.  I’d close my eyes and be in it, each time starting off in darkness and having to gently guide myself to the allowance of my own light inside. 

The scuffling noises that I’d heard, of course, showed up again and gave me an insight that is still playing over and over again like a mini movie in my head.  There inside this cave and to my left, were about 10 people, crouched down low and holding on to one another’s shoulders, all slowly moving in the same direction in the cave together.  The majority didn’t have flashlights themselves, so were huddled up close to each other with one gentleman who was out in front with a flashlight leading the way, but still crouched down like the rest.  » Read more

My goodness have we ever been taught to be afraid of the dark!  So representative of that which is intellectually unknown to us.  So mired in the polarized struggle between good and evil.  So present in our lives but yet completely invisible to us because we have existed in it and understood no other way.

It appears that I sat in the dark for so many months with the candle perfectly placed by me in order to progressively witness the lack of boogiemen I had once feared would come out of the corners and do something scary.  I had a new level of security, and with it also came a sense of exploration that I would look into this cave that I had been “stuck” in (or, placed myself in).  I started feeling around once again and walking with trust assuming that there would be a new brighter light somewhere…maybe down a tunnel…I just had to venture out and find it.

Funny, how the tools I use on a daily basis to regain and remain in balance had gotten pirated by my little cave dweller…while taking careful steps in the darkness I became aware of shuffling noises around me and I obviously couldn’t see anything (wished for night vision goggles…but no…).  This immediately brought back the feeling of wanting to get up against a wall for safety, find a candle and see what the noise was and thus what I had to accept and love…I thought… » Read more

This particular blog is most likely going to take about 3 separate entries because I want to share an experience that needs a little extra room.  I have, up to this point, kept many of these deeper experiences to myself because of their personal nature and also because it’s often difficult to get a logical grasp on their meaning…and then relate that meaning to what is taking place either in my life or anything beyond it.

My meditations come in many different forms, and I’ve learned that meditation is NOT a tool I that I’d want to ever keep in a box, per se, and be limited in the wheres, the whens and the hows of it.  If I’ve had a long day and am frazzled from the inside out, the goal is clear…find quiet space, close the eyes, stop the mind, feel the breath…ah…the moment…and relax…begin anew from here.  If I’m in a painful place (physically or emotionally), the goal is to step aside from the pain and observe myself breathing it fully into my body to clearly see and acknowledge it, eyes open or closed and wherever I happen to be at the time. 

Then there are meditations that take me on long journeys into different worlds where I exist away from this body and experience.  It is as if my true home and being live there and I, through meditation, get to go visit the true me and watch myself evolve from this perspective as an observer. » Read more

Do you feel the sun rising and the energy of the new day calling?  If the mind is quiet while your awareness rests in the breath, can you feel the growing “motivation” around you?   Motivation for what?  For everything…to speak out, to go deeper inside, to hold on even tighter, to learn more, to let go, to get even, to run and hide…all pushing from different directions and telling you that it’s time.

The alarm is going off, but it’s hard to wake up from such a long and deep sleep.  It’s pretty loud though, and everyone can hear it to some extent as it calls out and literally shakes us awake (or, as awake as we’re consciously willing to become).  And as it is going off and everyone is stirring to some extent, it is also bringing up all of the unfinished business in all of the karmic lines of humanity. 

These lines and energetic holdings really need to be cleared in order to move through this wondrous event and into our next phase.  Each person on this planet is being asked, in a bit of a hurry compared to how long we’ve been around, to reconcile their existences and become clean slates…or as clean as possible.  Innately sensing this, everyone is also feeling “rushed” to do so in order to keep even keel with the quickly rising vibrancy of the earth. » Read more