creation

It has been a very active week of energetic cleansings taking place in all forms and on every level of our beings.  So deep and so true are the essences of this that one can be left feeling exhausted and not quite sure what has happened.  Thus if you’re feeling drained or “fried” there is a good reason for it.

As time continues to accelerate, all issues within the self that hold on to the old ways and old limits of love, communication and interaction with the self are popping out to the surface faster and faster.  I don’t even think that there is a place where one could bury their head deep enough in the sand to not somehow be affected by our inner call for freedom. 

This means that if there is fear residing in you or a belief that you are less than you are, then your environment will show it to you over and over again in different ways and at a faster rate so that you can simply see it and purge it.   If it (they) are held on to past this point they begin to fester and cause undue pain and that never does anyone any good.  So it’s time to really let go. » Read more

This cave, in a big way, represented my heart.  I realize that I had to sit inside my own heart not only in the darkness of the unknown, but also in the forgetfulness of my own history.  The history of the soul is forever recorded, I see, through the imprints of past experiences that remain as energetic recorded history lifetime after lifetime transferred through genetic lineages and karmic patterns.  And it is up to each of us individually to unplug ourselves enough from this illusional life to witness ourselves through the portal of the heart because there is no other place where our truth will be found.  There is only access through the heart.

The truth, then when unclouded and unfiltered, can both show us where the held bondages of our soul are and then set us free from them once they are clearly witnessed and released.   With the final release of these energetic holdings we are no longer bound, as a soul, to continually revisit the same experiences in a different manner through karma.  There is no need because the energy that drew the experience back over and over to us for learning is no longer there.

And then life gets interesting again.  Every single time something within gets cleared and new truth is uncovered, there surely will be a reflective change in something on the outside and in the immediate environment.  For me personally, a resignation from my long-held executive position in a company that I love was in order.  Talk about an unbelievably uncomfortable experience, mostly because I have felt so comfortable there and see the beauty and importance of what is accomplished with clean energy technologies.  » Read more

Over the past 3 days a large portion of the pretty little rug that made up my old world and (what I thought were) priorities, was swept clean out from under me.  Now as I sit here taking an in-breath and stock of all that has occurred, I can say with certainty, that it has been painful.  But also, and most importantly, I can also say that just past the shock of sudden change is an inconspicuous place…a room that is soft, gentle, clear and filled with the kindness of a loving kiss upon my cheek.

I’ll explain this later, but for now, let’s go back to the cave.  I returned there several times over a couple of day’s time.  I’d close my eyes and be in it, each time starting off in darkness and having to gently guide myself to the allowance of my own light inside. 

The scuffling noises that I’d heard, of course, showed up again and gave me an insight that is still playing over and over again like a mini movie in my head.  There inside this cave and to my left, were about 10 people, crouched down low and holding on to one another’s shoulders, all slowly moving in the same direction in the cave together.  The majority didn’t have flashlights themselves, so were huddled up close to each other with one gentleman who was out in front with a flashlight leading the way, but still crouched down like the rest.  » Read more

My goodness have we ever been taught to be afraid of the dark!  So representative of that which is intellectually unknown to us.  So mired in the polarized struggle between good and evil.  So present in our lives but yet completely invisible to us because we have existed in it and understood no other way.

It appears that I sat in the dark for so many months with the candle perfectly placed by me in order to progressively witness the lack of boogiemen I had once feared would come out of the corners and do something scary.  I had a new level of security, and with it also came a sense of exploration that I would look into this cave that I had been “stuck” in (or, placed myself in).  I started feeling around once again and walking with trust assuming that there would be a new brighter light somewhere…maybe down a tunnel…I just had to venture out and find it.

Funny, how the tools I use on a daily basis to regain and remain in balance had gotten pirated by my little cave dweller…while taking careful steps in the darkness I became aware of shuffling noises around me and I obviously couldn’t see anything (wished for night vision goggles…but no…).  This immediately brought back the feeling of wanting to get up against a wall for safety, find a candle and see what the noise was and thus what I had to accept and love…I thought… » Read more

This particular blog is most likely going to take about 3 separate entries because I want to share an experience that needs a little extra room.  I have, up to this point, kept many of these deeper experiences to myself because of their personal nature and also because it’s often difficult to get a logical grasp on their meaning…and then relate that meaning to what is taking place either in my life or anything beyond it.

My meditations come in many different forms, and I’ve learned that meditation is NOT a tool I that I’d want to ever keep in a box, per se, and be limited in the wheres, the whens and the hows of it.  If I’ve had a long day and am frazzled from the inside out, the goal is clear…find quiet space, close the eyes, stop the mind, feel the breath…ah…the moment…and relax…begin anew from here.  If I’m in a painful place (physically or emotionally), the goal is to step aside from the pain and observe myself breathing it fully into my body to clearly see and acknowledge it, eyes open or closed and wherever I happen to be at the time. 

Then there are meditations that take me on long journeys into different worlds where I exist away from this body and experience.  It is as if my true home and being live there and I, through meditation, get to go visit the true me and watch myself evolve from this perspective as an observer. » Read more