Self First

Doesn’t that sound selfish?  Putting yourself before everything else in your busy life?  What if you wake up one morning and feel emotionally or physically drained, but get dressed and make yourself go to that important widget meeting anyway? 

I’m a fairly active participant in the corporate world and can tell you that I use to, more often than not, get to the damn meeting regardless of what I knew was best for my body and my awakened role in the ascension process.   It’s not easy to place self first when so many things are very important all at one time.  Plus add to that the fact that we are set up for our internal working gears to be totally aligned with time and schedules, mental processing and the outer world, keeping our attention directly on the illusion and safely off of enlightenment.   But if we try to pull away from the illusion, the failsafe mechanisms built within it tend to always bring us back.  They do this through mentally igniting our feelings of guilt, for example, or even fear of lack, which then sends us straight into victimhood and drudgery…back into the safe and known illusion.

When we wake up in the morning and don’t FEEL like doing what we normally do, it is an important signpost for us to listen to.  The reason for the feeling may be evident in the form of a cold or digestive issue or exhaustedness, or we may be completely mentally ignorant to the reason, but regardless that all important feeling is there for a reason.

There are going to be many times when integration is needed, healing is needed, catch-up is needed, and our conscious awareness to these things is paramount in this process (self-awareness).  When we’re at work or functioning in our normal patterns, our minds naturally go toward those focuses and guaranteed, we won’t spend the time on ourselves that the body is asking for.  We literally keep our attention off of ourselves so we can hold on, one more day to our old comforts whether they harm us or not.

Gone are the days of living in the temples, being directed towards internal growth through solitude and quietness.  Upon us is the new vista where we actively live, participate and perform a complete awakening process on ourselves while living in the world…The awakening masters who have lived and experienced all of the facets of life in order to use that experience to transform life in all facets of our world.

To do this we must be diligent with ourselves in our own version of self-love.  We must honor that “time” needed while somehow living amongst all of life on this planet.  If we are to undertake this huge evolutionary leap in one lifetime while still operating in the world, there will then have to be a note-to-self that says “Me First, illusion second”.

Others won’t always understand, of course, hence the guilt and such.  Breathe, accept them and yourself perfectly and stay in your pajamas.

My Heart is One with Yours,

Peace!

Ornesha