And Into The Light

Over the past 3 days a large portion of the pretty little rug that made up my old world and (what I thought were) priorities, was swept clean out from under me.  Now as I sit here taking an in-breath and stock of all that has occurred, I can say with certainty, that it has been painful.  But also, and most importantly, I can also say that just past the shock of sudden change is an inconspicuous place…a room that is soft, gentle, clear and filled with the kindness of a loving kiss upon my cheek.

I’ll explain this later, but for now, let’s go back to the cave.  I returned there several times over a couple of day’s time.  I’d close my eyes and be in it, each time starting off in darkness and having to gently guide myself to the allowance of my own light inside. 

The scuffling noises that I’d heard, of course, showed up again and gave me an insight that is still playing over and over again like a mini movie in my head.  There inside this cave and to my left, were about 10 people, crouched down low and holding on to one another’s shoulders, all slowly moving in the same direction in the cave together.  The majority didn’t have flashlights themselves, so were huddled up close to each other with one gentleman who was out in front with a flashlight leading the way, but still crouched down like the rest. 

In the dark cave, the flashlight was darting to and fro and as it moved to a new spot, the little group of people would also move to the place it was shining.  They’d stop for a second, then the leader would shine it somewhere else and off they’d go!   They could not see anything around them, including me, and totally relied upon this one guy out in front to lead them around.  The guy in front only had his flashlight to rely upon and appeared quite certain that he knew the way…but what it looked like was similar to the tracks an ant makes, almost like these people were following a previous scent that took them in circles, up, down around and over.

And yes, I recognized some of these people as those that I have professionally worked with for some time.   I have the greatest love and respect for these people and what they do, all in one way or another like family and all in their individual ways searching for and pushing in the direction of a cleaner, healthier planet. 

As I widened my perspective, I looked around throughout the cave and noticed a couple more lights piercing the darkness.  This moment led me to the following luminous realizations that I may have been aware of on some level, but yet hadn’t understood the profound bigger picture to this extent.

We’ve really been living in the darkness and in the absence of light, have huddled around together for comfort and safety because we couldn’t see or feel beyond.  We have not only needed flashlights, but leaders to carry them and to trust to guide us through the darkness.  These flashlights have only been able to shine on specific things while leaving everything else around us un-illuminated.  And while our little flashlights are so limited in their focus we are unable to see the big picture, so we move around in circles following our own scent (karma) over and over and over and over again.

It looks as though this is how we’ve all mainly existed up to this point.  But that’s about to change.

I’ll have more to share in the next blog.  I want to talk about how I’ve found my way out of the cave and the not-so-gentle but well worth results of it in my “life”…which means that I’m just going to move right on past this being a 3-part blog.   And I’d also like to thank you for listening.  We are all asking a lot of ourselves right now, stretching, learning and growing in ways that we couldn’t do if we were separate from one another. 

My Heart is One With Yours,

Peace!

Ornesha